I’ve finally decided to give writing a go.
And what a time I’ve chosen. I have a newborn baby, and I am working on two other courses of study.
I’ve enrolled in SFU’s The Writer’s Studio Online. Some months ago when I was reflecting on myself, it came clear as day to me that I should’ve done a degree in English. I’m grateful for the opportunities my journalism training has given me, and it was a practical choice at the time. But I don’t think it was the best choice. So I decided to redeem myself to myself and find a sensible creative writing programme.
Some people say if you want to write just write and these progmmes are a waste of money. I agree with them. But I’m the kind of person who won’t write much without some kind of big stick over my back. So I see the value of these programmes. This is only the first week. And I hope I am able to produce work that comes a bit close to what I want to see come out of me.
My other projects are the JLPT, and Trinity Dip. TESOL. Both have been on the table for a while and I enjoy studying Japanese, but I’ve developed palpable resentment for the Dip and what it represents in my life.
I’ve enrolled in Kumon’s Japanese correspondence course to help me prepare for N2 next July. I’ve put it off til then to focus on the writing. The Kumon course is basically completing worksheets and sending them in. First will arrive in October.
Now the Dip. There are four units. I’ve passed two, failed one once and the other twice. I don’t fail things. So this has been quite stressful for me. But I know it’s because deep down I don’t want to do it. I also don’t think the way the programme is organised is not best for me. But I’ve been trying hard to let go off this negativity. So I will complete at least one of the failed units November, and the other next May.
In a year’s time, I hope to be able to read this and think ‘whew, you did it’. And even if I didn’t, to be OK with it.
Oh, I’m also about to sign up and begin training for my first run (10k) since baby. It’s going to be on November 4, about seven weeks from now.